doing ok 24/09/2009

quite a bit of my recent stress has been alleviated.  not quite gone, but at least i can take a break.  there’s still a lot of REALLY important things i need to do, but i think i will fair ok.  daddy just left for the philippines a week ago.  he usually goes off there these days so nii-san and i are pretty used to it.  but he didn’t call us when he was on his way to japan like he usually does so i was freaking out.  and since then i hadn’t even heard if he had landed safely or not.  so many things went through my head while worrying about daddy’s whereabouts.  i even got sick(er) thinking about what might’ve happened.  yes.  i was literally worred sick.  but he finally gave us a ring today saying he was all right.  phew!  there goes a lot of stress.  also i think i have MOSTLY taking care of all the medicaid crap i have to deal with.  i’m hoping all i have to do is just fax the documents they need and i’m done.  *happy sigh*  feels so good.

because of that, the last few days i’ve been able to hoop again (still VERY sore, but at least i’m not nauseated by slight movement) and i’ve been very artsy.  tonight i must’ve hooped about 2 hours put together.  it’s easy to do when you watch tv.  haha.  took a few breaks of course, but it rocked.  i’m hoping to tone back up a little.  i’ve gained quite a bit of weight since i had gotten sick over a month ago.  also been doing a lot of quick sketching and a bit of painting.  i can say this because beni never reads my journal.  i’ve also been working pretty hard on beni’s birthday painting.  not sure if i’m going to be able to finish it in a timely manner, so i’m thinking about saving that piece for christmas and painting him something a little less complex.  but i’ve been doing a lot of acrylic painting as well as digital.  i also finally got corel painter.  it’s pretty hard compared to photoshop, but i’ll get the hang of it eventually.  i absolutely LOVE the watercolours!!

well, i’m going to go.  but i’ll leave you off with one digital painting i did.  happy being!

interwebbing 31/08/2009

FINALLY!  i’m back online using a network that my family actually pays for!  (we’ve been using public wi-fi and mooching off neighbours…hahaha…)  yep.  that’s because we’re finally settled in to a permanent (for now) home.  before we were all over the place.

so i’m happy.  i can finally get back to my normal swing of things like the Bentley Brothers forums, deviantART, wordpress, etc.  yoshi!  this rocks!  speaking of things that rock…

i’ve been getting art from different artists of my SNK/KoF original characters.  check ‘em out!

Mae, the character i named after my sister, by Benit149

Bae-ki and Mae by AngelsareFacists

Jun and Jack by LadyAushe

feeling illz 20/08/2009

not been feeling really well recently.  after the cross-country road trip, i’ve feel like…well…shit.  but even before the trip either my uterus, stomach, or bladder kept hurting as well as “the twins”.  not to mention the random back pain i get every so often came back for a visit while i was in Morongo.  oy.

but since coming back and in addition to those existing pains, i’ve felt really nauseous, dizzy, headachey, and my appetite has been fluctuating more than a strobe light at a rave.  i can’t even get through a whole meal without saying “i’m not feeling this anymore”.

i’m considering actually seeing a doctor or something.  but i’m thinking after dad goes back to the philippines.  he’s got a lot on his mind right now and i don’t want to add to it.  i’m kinda worried.  maybe because i know someone right now who had a few of the same symptoms and had just been tested positive for a brain tumour.  uhh…  i’m sure that’s not it, but i NEED to figure this out.  i’d ask if anyone of you might know of have a theory on what’s up, but i disable comments.  ehhh..  oh well.

on a not so depressing, or whatever, note, here’s a drawing i did of Jacob Riley, beni’s SNK character.  only he’s LITTLE JAKE (little jake, little jake, little jake).  ok.  i think only beni and maybe nii-san might get the “little jake” part…

oh.  and since i mentioned nii-san, here’s a new drawing i did of Mae Foster, the character i named after nii.  =D

yay tiemz!

art collab 09/08/2009

i did my first art collaboration in deviantArt!  it was pretty cool.  i love talking to other artists and such.  i’ve already got a few people doing art for me of my SNK original characters.  ^^  i can’t wait for those!  here’s the first piece i got today.

pretty cool.  wish she shaded it, but that’s ok.  i’m just glad i got to work on something with another person.  ^^  here’s the original.

(made it smaller just so loading this page won’t take so long)

yay!  oh!  and i finally made my devID!  check it!

see beni!  i told you i’d eventually draw something for nazi zombies.  see the ray gun?  that’s good enough, right??  xD

if you’re on dA, i’d love it if you comment on the pictures!  you should be able to just click on the pictures and it’ll link you right to the deviations.  =3

SNK OS 16/07/2009

i came up with a name to call my SNK story!  SNK OS!  yay!  (OS meaning “original story” but it just sounds cool because it’s like Mac OS X.  xD  lame..)

anyway, i worked on the timeline and a few new character profiles ZeLAnne and Mae Foster who are both minor characters i named after my sister and me.  *snort*  i also better organised the profiles into i guess “page folders” so it’s easier for me to tell where each character falls into the storyline.

oh man.  just remembered no one here can read it unless they have the password.  uhh…sorry.  ^^;  if you REALLY want to read it, just ask me for the password.  i might give it to you.  i promise it’s really not all that interesting.  maybe to beni because he helped with the story (even though the story i am using on these profiles are the ones i made like a year before i introduced the idea to beni…).  i guess i’m blogging about it because that what i’ve been doing the past few hours.  ahh!  there you go.  this is legit blogging!  i = win!

well, since you can’t read the profiles, i’ll give you some of the incomplete profile art i have locked away in those pages.  =3

busy all day 10/07/2009

i was drawing a lot earlier, and while doing that, i thought it’d be fun to flesh out some character profiles for a few of my SNK OCs.

wow.  i was stupid.

such a terrible idea.  i seriously must’ve spent over 2 hours on each of the two profiles i got done.  ughh..!  so bad!  anyway, the profiles are both filed under “random facts and pix”.  oh, and they both password protected.  if you REALLY want to read them, i guess you can ask me for the password.  maybe i’ll give it to you, maybe i won’t.  ooo.  now i’m being a bitch.  i require sleep.

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well halloz thar! 14/05/2009

(me at starbucks before watching star trek)

it’s been a while, eh?  well, i guess i’ve been pretty busy.  nii-san just graduated last weekend which was SUPER awesome!  now she gets to start life and all that fun jazz.  i have also been sick the past few days.  i’m not sure what caused it.  a lot of it is terrible headaches, sensitive skin, weak/sore muscles, and a sore throat and tongue which forced me on a liquid diet for a while.  ughh…  i’m starting to feel better, but it is really on and off.

well, turns out nii-san and i will be chillaxing here in the sunshine state for longer than originally planned.  while dad is in the Phils, we will be here.  when he gets back is when we…drive…back…to…cali…  ugh.  i had roadtrips.  D8

i finished my first painting.  yay!  took a while because i just got into doing pop art, so i had to get my mind to think in that way.  i’m so used to doing detailed work and such that i had a hard time settling with something that different.  after many trial and errors, i finally  came up with my first piece!

yay!  it’s actually pretty bad, and i had a hellova time with the darker blue colour, but in the end, i was pretty satisfied.  the portrait is of greg cipes, and NOT zac efron like beni kept accusing it to be.  x6  i figured since he’s one of my biggest inspirations, i should dedicate something to him.  ^^  i hope if he sees it he likes it.  hehehe…  and i hope y’all like it too!

well, i’m just about done for now.  i just wanted to throw in a blog before i got busy again.  errr.  ta!

poet 01/05/2009

i’ve been in a really spiritual and artsy mood recently.  i have been practicing a lot with my tarot cards and starting to understand my readings a little bit better.  i still stink at it, but hey.  i’m getting there.  i also just got back into hooping again since beni sent me the hoop-making goods.  =3  and whenever i hoop, i feel like i’m a wave, constantly flowing.  i just have so much fun doing it.  i don’t know a lot of tricks nor am i very good at it, but i love it.

my sketch book is pretty much getting to the end point.  still a lot more pages, but i can tell it’s hurting.  haha.  i’m just sketching so much these days.  sketching anything really.  before i left cali, i had been doing a lot of watercolour paintings.  dad actually saw me doing them, loved them, and told me i should do bigger paintings to post on the walls for the resort in the Phils.  sounds like a good idea.  since watercolours don’t translate into larger canvases that well, well, at least with my skills, i thought i’d try a new medium.  i considered oil since i’ve worked with those in the past, but i always feel like i have to make a masterpiece when i use oil.  a lot of pressure, i’d say.  after much contemplating, i decided to try out acrylics.  i’m really excited to try.  zanthia is hosting this art walk thing on saturday and sunday, and i’m thinking about going.  still need to work out a few things for that though.  like a way to get there.  heh…  but we’ll see.  so yep.  hopefully i’ll be doing a lot of painting soon.  if anyone has any tips or know of a good website or video, send ‘em my way!  (jiawen@mtsong.com)

and y’all should know by now i’ve been trying my hand with photography.  not very good at it, nor have i done a lot of research for it, but i think my shots aren’t too bad.

beni took me to open mic night at cafe hey.  holy crap!  i loved it!  i can’t wait to go back.  i’m still pretty shy to go up and read, but during the whole show i kept coming up with such random things to talk about.  like how i wished forever stamps came in cuter designs, and how fat i think my lips look.  haha.  see.  random.  we’ll see.  maybe i’ll have the balls to go up next time.  but i had a blast.

i r commercial artist again! 25/02/2009

i hadn’t done a photomanipulation since…oh man.  since i graduated??  anyway, so my cousin tayler is doing this really big project and she wanted her cover to have something really cool on it.  so she asked me if i could whip up some art-major magic.  this isn’t TOO amazing, but i do love it and so did she.  not to mention it’s the first one i’ve done in like 2 years.

possibly my last post? 17/09/2008

this my possibly be my last post before i leave.  maybe.  who knows.

so i’m packing right now and it’s going HORRIBLY.  coming here i packed WAY more than i needed.  now here i am trying to stuff those same luggages with even more crap.  i just sent 4 boxes home through the mail today–a walk i would NOT like to remember–and i just fixed up another box to send home.  still, my bags are crying.  oh man.  i think I’LL cry.  it’s going so bad.  i hate packing.  i especially hate packing when there is a 50lb limit.  shoot me.

i also have to clean up my room.  haven’t even started that.  i just got out all the crap that i own and that’s it.  there’s garbage everywhere and…ughhh..  horrible.  and i have to get my room inspected TONIGHT.  and if i fail, i have to pay $100 and forfeit my bonus.  *tears*  i don’t expect to be sleeping much tonight.  it’s my last night here.  ughh.  i might just pull off an all-nighter and when i’m done, i’ll just watch the northern lights if they are out.  i guess that’s looking at the brighter side of things, eh?

today is beni’s birthday and it’s been shitty.  he spent all last night writing a document about why he won’t be returning to princess.  it is supposed to be delivered to kristen wells, who i believe is the AGM of this lodge.  well, turns out she won’t be getting the document right away and he’s really upset about that.  we were also supposed to go to our friends’ cabin over at campwell tonight to have a bonfire and celebrate beni’s birthday, but it was raining all day so we had to cancel.  it really sucks.  we were going to watch the lights too.  it’s a lot easier to see them up there than over at healy despite it is more south.  instead we were going to go to the totem of have dinner.  well, one of our friends go sick and it just fell apart.  so now we were left to eat crappy food and spend the night packing and cleaning.  sucks.

it’s ok.  just ONE MORE DAY.  i can hardly wait.  i’m done with princess.  i wish i could’ve spent my last week here just enjoying alaska, but that’s not going to happen.  whatever.  at least they fixed the water heater so we don’t have to bathe in icy cold water like the last two nights.  f*cktards..  so everyone, DON’T WORK FOR PRINCESS.  if you want to come up to alaska and work in denali, work for the park instead or aramark.  i’d say the park.  at least you get paid more and it’s run by the government and not by a bunch of shitacular fat asses.

i fly out friday morning.  i’m probably just going to spend the first day vegging out or sleeping.  but after that, hang-outs must begin.

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two new vids.  =/

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possibly the last drawings i’ll post before home.  oh my!

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