day five 24/10/2010

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

1) not visited my mom in the hospital every chance i got.
2) ruined relationships with friends.
3) waited so long to decide to go back to school.
4) gone out with a few people that i did.
5) went to that POS psychic in cali.
6) bought as much useless crap as i have over the years.

day four 11/10/2010

(woah.  just realised i didn’t post this.)

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1) what should i do with my life?
2) i wonder what’s on tv right now.
3) has it been 2 hours?
4) is dakota going to be safe while i run downstairs real quick or should i put her in the crib?
5) why can’t florida NOT suck.
6) i can’t wait until beni’s off!
7) i bet that’s dtoid again.  (referring to tweets)

day three 08/10/2010

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

1) have a good sense of humour.  for extra points, have MY sense of humour!  now that’s scary.
2) this is weird, but be older than me.
3) you must be taller than me as well.
4) it’d be great if you were smart.  i’m a dumb asian so my “other” needs to pick up where i slack off.
5) share similar hobbies or be supportive of my own.
6) care about my family.  i’m VERY filippino so family is important!
7) make me feel special!
8 ) be true to themself and not try to just impress me.

this was kinda funny to write because someone already won my heart.  xD  oh beni.  i love you!! <333  please have babies with me!  oh wait.

day two 06/10/2010

1) i am ambidextrous and am damn proud of it!  i write with my right hand though and i shoot guns from my left.  some activities favour one hand over the other on occasion.

2) i don’t exactly know what “scene” i’m in.  i have gone through more phases than you can imagine.  from goth to hippie.  i am currently on “lazy mother”.  that’s a scene, right?

3) i love being a flip, but i have an utter disdain for other flips my age who are hardcore about it.  if i see a filippino flag on someone’s rear-view mirror, i get pissed off.  on that note, i hate it when ANYONE puts their flag on their rear-view mirror.  if you love your country so much, why the hell are you here?  GO BACK TO IT!  (eee.  i don’t mean to get so pissy…)

4) my daughter dakota was named in honour of my mother.  ”dakota” was always a name my mother liked and she always said that if she ever has another girl, her name would be dakota.  my baby is her third girl.  ^w^

5) i had a brother who’s name was andrew.  he would be 17 now if he never died…

6) i hate my feet.  my right ring toe to me is the ugliest thing about me.  when i was younger and weird, i almost cut it off.  D8  glad i didn’t.  no.  seriously!  i almost did because it was so ugly!

7) i love art but i personally think i suck at it.  i draw people, but not well.  that’s about it.  ]8<

8 ) i have a mild case of obsessive compulsive disorder.  i was diagnosed with it back in my early teens.  when i was younger, it was bad enough where if i had a scratch on one knee, i would make another scratch on the other.  i was also very obsessed with even numbers.  luckily i don’t have to go to therapy for it anymore.  whoot!  xD

9) some days i wish i was taller, other days i wish i was shorter.  it’s very weird and i don’t have any way to elaborate on that..  hmm..

day one 05/10/2010

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

1) everything will be ok.  i know it’s tough.  as if being a teenager isn’t rough enough, you have to deal with this other shit that just tears you bit by bit.  please don’t let it get to you!  you are a beautiful person and you can’t let ANYONE take that away from you.

2) stop being an idiot.  you’re an adult now. we’re not in high school anymore.  grow up.  you know that you aren’t really like that.  you’re only doing it for attention.  i love you, but you’re a real idiot sometimes.

3) just tell me what we’re going to do.  not knowing kills me.  i want to start my life, but you’re so stuck on your past and you’re living in this perfect world that you aren’t allowing yourself or the rest of us move on.

4) why do you do what you do?  don’t you have a heart?  no.  seriously.  i’m wondering.  i don’t get how you can go about preaching about god and jesus this, jesus that, then you turn around and do something so incredibly horrible!  i can’t even fathom it!  don’t you know that you are ruining her?  don’t you know that you are going to emotional scar him?  they are both so young and so innocent right now and you are just building up negative energy in them.  what if they don’t grow up hating themselves and instead they end up hating you and crossing their fingers for you demise?  by the way, what would god think of what you’ve done??

5) you’re annoying.  i know you’re happy, but stop rubbing it into our faces.  no.  i’m not really jealous.  yeah, maybe a little.  but honestly, it’s annoying and i kinda want to slap you for being so vain.  you’re not really all that wonderful.  bitch.

6) it hurts to see you like this.  like you’re trapped in your own body and you can’t even express to us how you want to live the rest of your life.  i’m scared, but if you want to go, you should be allowed to.  don’t let anyone else hold you back..  i love you.  she loves you.  we all love you.  you deserve to be happy.

7) it’s sucks to see you like this.  you used to be so sure of yourself and so positive.  now you joke about how negative you always are and honestly it’s not only annoying it’s really depressing.  i used to want to be just like you, now find myself embarrassed to have to be associated with you.  please turn your life around.  stop being so down on yourself.  maybe you’ll turn me around as well.

8 ) i miss you.  i want to know where you are, what happened to you.  my phone number is still the same as when i was 16.  CALL IT.  please…  i miss you so bad…  we were best friends.  what happened?  i know what happened.  i’m sorry.  i wish i could fix it.  call me.  please..

9) i’m sorry for what i did.  i was a bitch and i shouldn’t have treated you like i did.  i’m trying to move on, but i can’t.  i don’t care if it’s selfish of me, but i need closure if nothing better.

10) i miss you.  i love you.  please, let me see you again.

random challenge thing 05/10/2010

my god brother’s been doing these challenge things.  i think i’ll hit up a few.  xD  here’s my first challenge on No Juice For You.  i have another challenge going on on my tumblr.  if you want to do this challenge, let me know!  i’d like to see yours too!  ^^

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.