ok. this blog is just going to have random junk and not just one thing in particular.
nick fazio just posted this on facebook status. ”STOP POSTING SONG LYRICS!!!” hahaha… i couldn’t have said it angrier myself. oh wait. i could, but i won’t for the light-hearted ears (or reading eyes? whatever.) this has pissed me off for a long time now. i don’t know why, but i thought your status is supposed to be something that is up with you. not words of a so-called musical artist or whatever. but what do i know. on that note, i also hate it when people post stupid quotes or sayings on their status, blogs and/or twitters. it’s stupid and annoying. i don’t care what someone from family guy said in tonight’s new episode. honestly, i couldn’t give a fuck. and another thing that annoys me is when someone just reposts another person’s blog on theirs or just put a picture and call it a day. that’s lame and boring. and so are people who do this. post your own shit or don’t post anything at all. i’m done.
zombies. ahh yes. zombies. we finally get a glimpse at the new nazi zombie mode on call of duty: black ops. oh my god… JFK, nixon, castro and [insert mystery/unknown 4th member here] vs zombies??! xD i think when i found that out, i jizzed myself a little. it’s sooooooo dumb! but dumb in an awesome, brodeo, frat boy, high-fiving kind of dumb…and i like it! i’ve been waiting for news about this all year and finally it’s here! one week, suckers! ONE WEEK! don’t expect to hear from me a few days after its release. btw, i call JFK! xD
hopefully this won’t be taken down anytime soon.
got in an accident today. yeah. decided to put this in the middle of this blog rather than on facebook, twitter, or even on its own separate blog. i personally hate it when people publicly post about something terrible that happened to them. they usually just do it to gauge peoples’ responses, and i’m not that type of person. so why am i posting about it at all? because it happened, but it wasn’t a big deal. anyway, it was beni, dakota and me in the car. we had to take beni’s little acura integra because dad had the isuzu for his fishing trip. we had quite a few plans. those plans consisting of going to the post office, picking up a few things at target, getting a few goodies at the oriental market, and, the biggest of them all, dos tacos at tijuana flats. *sigh* never got our tacos. we waited ALL week too… we made it to the post office. we were so close to the us 301 and bloomingdale intersection. target is almost immediately at the turn. we were on the far right lane ready to turn when this guy in a huge pick-up truck with a trailer runs a stop sign. we weren’t even 50ft away when he decided to go. beni slammed on his brakes but we hit. )= i was so scared because the collision happened on our passengers side where dakota was. i remember seeing her head bounce as we hit. i was in tears! how could i not be??! my baby could’ve gotten hurt! luckily the driver didn’t just run. the whole thing got sorted out in a little over 2 hours. unfortunately all of it was under heavy rain. ughh… beni’s dad was on our side of town and was able to give us a lift. we are all ok, thank goodness! except for scarlet, beni’s car. or poor scarlet. she got banged up along her right side, tore up a nice chunk over the wheel and right where dakota was there was this HUGE dent. thank god dakota was ok. hopefully beni’s insurance can repair the damage.
dakota was surprisingly calm when we got hit. in fact, she was actually giggling and playing afterwards while we waited for the highway patrol. |8 what a little weirdo. xD <33
FINALLY watched scott pilgrim vs the world last night. don’t ask me how. i’ll be honest, it was talked up a bit much… BUT DON’T TAKE THAT WRONG! i still loved it. xD it was almost as lol-tastic as the comic. knives was a total cutie and wallace was probably the greatest thing to happen to that series. xD and i loved the fights! i was actually pretty impressed with the choreography. this coming from a former wushu laoshi and a huge asian action film fan. the ending could’ve been done a little bit better, but i’m not going to complain. it was still a fun watch and i do recommend it to the retro-gamer crowd.
i’m finally taking out the hair extensions i got from the RSKTKR and Midori shoot a few months ago. i’m sooooo happy! i really liked the longer hair, but the tape on the extensions started showing and i was pretty much always going out with a hat or bandana over my head to hide them. it was really embarrassing and it made getting dressed quite difficult. though taking them out has been a bitch. you pretty much dowse it with baby oil then pull out each strand of hair from it until the extension is off. very tedious. my arms are hurting from it. i still have a few to go albeit. *cries* someone, please punch the hair extensions off my head! (lulz to whoever gets that.) oh well. i will miss them. they made me feel hot. hahaha~ maybe i’ll get them done again someday in the distant future when i can actually afford it (i got it done free because of the photo shoot).
ok. before i get too boring, one more thing. been getting back to doing more traditional art. it’s been fun. i am in the middle of one painting right now. it was actually a test painting, but i kinda liked how the sketch turned out. maybe it’ll be wall-worthy. i can only be so lucky. btw, did i mention i’ve been painting on cardboard? a friend on deviantart recommended it to me and i am loving it! cardboard is free, abundant, and it actually holds up really well. i’ll have to post some pictures once i actually get something done.
all right. i’m done now. you may now resume your way more interesting life!
maddie is one of the few people that knows exactly what is going on with me. out of all my closest friends right now, i have known madison the longest and i feel like i can open up to her whenever i need to. it also seems like whenever i’m down, she can somehow sense it because the next thing i know i’ll see a message on my phone from her asking “is everything ok?”
i get a call from one of my best girlfriends suzy. she had been worried about me recently because of how i have been acting. i try not to burden others with my problems even by telling them what is wrong, but for some reason i felt it was ok to do it just this once. i let out everything, what is wrong with me, that i’ve been feeling down, and how i felt so hopeless…and she listened. held on to every word and listened and reassured me everything was going to be ok. it is funny how our friendship randomly fired back up so suddenly after not speaking to her for maybe 2 years, but boy am i glad as hell it happened. <33
by some crazy chance, the universe led my dear friend jules over to this exact blog. he looked through my entries only to be saddened by my current state of mind and general well-being. a few days ago i get a call from him. he’s one of those that not only is a great listener but knows just what to say to make things so much better. he suggested we just get together sometime soon to just chat and hopefully work through my problems. i hope that happens! before we ended the call he reassured me that i will get through this tough time. he told me whenever i’m too overwhelmed, breathe in “love” and exhale “light”. i tried it that night, and it really DID help. i’ve been using that technique since and i think i’ll eventually swear by it. ^^
my cousin terra (tayler) is probably my closest relative aside from immediate family. we grew up together and to this day i still consider her my “little sister”. the girl is only 15, six years younger than me and she is probably one of the most intuitive, but not aware, person i know. i am now convinced she is an 
since finding out what medical condition i was going though, i felt as if my sister had done everything to distance herself from me. i felt as if i couldn’t talk to her and if i needed her, she woudn’t do anything to help me. i’m hoping that that is just her way with handling news such as this, but i still hated it. i would get angry with her very easily, but did everything i could to keep it to myself considering her sensitive personality. sometimes, ok. correction, i ALWAYS feel like i am in fact the older sister and i’m watching over some sort of 8 year old. she’s known about my condition since 9 september, and i still don’t think she’s ready to accept it. but recently, i think she’s been starting to start accepting. excuse the repetition. maybe i’m just blinded by my hopes, but i feel like she’s been doing a little more to spend a little time with me whether it be watching our hour and a half of scrubs around midnight or her hanging in my main room playing resident evil 5. baby steps, and i’m so thankful for them. <33
