up late. dakota kai hurt herself really badly so dad and i are monitoring her. i thought i should do a speed painting while awake. everyone cross your fingers that the little one is ok. 3′=
blog vomit 02/11/2010
ok. this blog is just going to have random junk and not just one thing in particular.
nick fazio just posted this on facebook status. ”STOP POSTING SONG LYRICS!!!” hahaha… i couldn’t have said it angrier myself. oh wait. i could, but i won’t for the light-hearted ears (or reading eyes? whatever.) this has pissed me off for a long time now. i don’t know why, but i thought your status is supposed to be something that is up with you. not words of a so-called musical artist or whatever. but what do i know. on that note, i also hate it when people post stupid quotes or sayings on their status, blogs and/or twitters. it’s stupid and annoying. i don’t care what someone from family guy said in tonight’s new episode. honestly, i couldn’t give a fuck. and another thing that annoys me is when someone just reposts another person’s blog on theirs or just put a picture and call it a day. that’s lame and boring. and so are people who do this. post your own shit or don’t post anything at all. i’m done.
zombies. ahh yes. zombies. we finally get a glimpse at the new nazi zombie mode on call of duty: black ops. oh my god… JFK, nixon, castro and [insert mystery/unknown 4th member here] vs zombies??! xD i think when i found that out, i jizzed myself a little. it’s sooooooo dumb! but dumb in an awesome, brodeo, frat boy, high-fiving kind of dumb…and i like it! i’ve been waiting for news about this all year and finally it’s here! one week, suckers! ONE WEEK! don’t expect to hear from me a few days after its release. btw, i call JFK! xD
hopefully this won’t be taken down anytime soon.
got in an accident today. yeah. decided to put this in the middle of this blog rather than on facebook, twitter, or even on its own separate blog. i personally hate it when people publicly post about something terrible that happened to them. they usually just do it to gauge peoples’ responses, and i’m not that type of person. so why am i posting about it at all? because it happened, but it wasn’t a big deal. anyway, it was beni, dakota and me in the car. we had to take beni’s little acura integra because dad had the isuzu for his fishing trip. we had quite a few plans. those plans consisting of going to the post office, picking up a few things at target, getting a few goodies at the oriental market, and, the biggest of them all, dos tacos at tijuana flats. *sigh* never got our tacos. we waited ALL week too… we made it to the post office. we were so close to the us 301 and bloomingdale intersection. target is almost immediately at the turn. we were on the far right lane ready to turn when this guy in a huge pick-up truck with a trailer runs a stop sign. we weren’t even 50ft away when he decided to go. beni slammed on his brakes but we hit. )= i was so scared because the collision happened on our passengers side where dakota was. i remember seeing her head bounce as we hit. i was in tears! how could i not be??! my baby could’ve gotten hurt! luckily the driver didn’t just run. the whole thing got sorted out in a little over 2 hours. unfortunately all of it was under heavy rain. ughh… beni’s dad was on our side of town and was able to give us a lift. we are all ok, thank goodness! except for scarlet, beni’s car. or poor scarlet. she got banged up along her right side, tore up a nice chunk over the wheel and right where dakota was there was this HUGE dent. thank god dakota was ok. hopefully beni’s insurance can repair the damage.
dakota was surprisingly calm when we got hit. in fact, she was actually giggling and playing afterwards while we waited for the highway patrol. |8 what a little weirdo. xD <33
FINALLY watched scott pilgrim vs the world last night. don’t ask me how. i’ll be honest, it was talked up a bit much… BUT DON’T TAKE THAT WRONG! i still loved it. xD it was almost as lol-tastic as the comic. knives was a total cutie and wallace was probably the greatest thing to happen to that series. xD and i loved the fights! i was actually pretty impressed with the choreography. this coming from a former wushu laoshi and a huge asian action film fan. the ending could’ve been done a little bit better, but i’m not going to complain. it was still a fun watch and i do recommend it to the retro-gamer crowd.
i’m finally taking out the hair extensions i got from the RSKTKR and Midori shoot a few months ago. i’m sooooo happy! i really liked the longer hair, but the tape on the extensions started showing and i was pretty much always going out with a hat or bandana over my head to hide them. it was really embarrassing and it made getting dressed quite difficult. though taking them out has been a bitch. you pretty much dowse it with baby oil then pull out each strand of hair from it until the extension is off. very tedious. my arms are hurting from it. i still have a few to go albeit. *cries* someone, please punch the hair extensions off my head! (lulz to whoever gets that.) oh well. i will miss them. they made me feel hot. hahaha~ maybe i’ll get them done again someday in the distant future when i can actually afford it (i got it done free because of the photo shoot).
ok. before i get too boring, one more thing. been getting back to doing more traditional art. it’s been fun. i am in the middle of one painting right now. it was actually a test painting, but i kinda liked how the sketch turned out. maybe it’ll be wall-worthy. i can only be so lucky. btw, did i mention i’ve been painting on cardboard? a friend on deviantart recommended it to me and i am loving it! cardboard is free, abundant, and it actually holds up really well. i’ll have to post some pictures once i actually get something done.
all right. i’m done now. you may now resume your way more interesting life!
pain…oh my god the pain… 28/10/2010
i’ve been trying to get dakota kai to sleep in her crib, but damn that’s hard. she wakes up, cries, you try to feed her, she doesn’t want to eat, finally does 30 minutes later, she falls asleep, pick her up to put in crib, cries, and it cycles until you’re just so fed up with it and give up. well, last night, i was finally able to get her in the crib no problem, but when she woke up for food, getting her back in a second time was next to impossible. not to mention painful…
the damn crib is too high.. i have a problem reaching over and putting her in there. oh. and forgot to mention that the mattress is incredibly low now too because she’s standing up all the time now and she almost climbed out of the crib when i put her there for only a minute while i used the washroom. so dakota kai’s sleeping. i go to put her in the crib as slowly as possible. then it happens. the crib owns me in the left boob. pain shoots through so badly i wanted to scream. didn’t want to react because i was holding a sleeping dakota so i just continue to let my left boob squish onto the crib. i put her in, immediately fell onto my bed and started to cry. quietly though. then she wakes up not even 5 minutes later… Dx
i seriously don’t think i’ve ever felt that much pain on my chest EVER! i thought being engorged the first week of breastfeeding was the worst pain ever. no. this was that times [insert ridiculously high number here]. i never want to feel that kind of pain again. i’m really worried though because whenever i breathe heavily it hurts really badly. it’s a quick sharp pain, but still. i hope it’s just sore and will get better soon.
my little bunny 03/09/2010
it’s been a rough few days for dakota.
being a terrible mother got her sick. she has a runny nose and is having a difficult time breathing. last night was really bad. she woke up every 10 minutes or less crying because she couldn’t breath in enough air. i had to hold her still and suck out the mucus from her nose which was probably very traumatising for her. the worse part of the night was when she woke up, freaked out because she couldn’t breath, then fell off the bed…
i can’t tell you how horrible that moment was. i’ll never forget that sound of her falling. i feel horrible. i always tell myself that whenever she gets hurt, keep a smile on my face so she doesn’t freak out. i couldn’t hold it together last night. luckily beni was there to comfort her while keeping a happy face. i know he was hurting too. all day today he called to check up on her.
tomorrow i have to go to dakota’s paediatrician first thing in the morning to check to see if everything’s ok. she’d been vomiting a bit which is always scary and she never does that. and she was unusually happy today. i don’t know. maybe she was just happy because i played with her more. but when i got a call back from her doctor later on in the day, they said to look out for a change in personality. i hope this is not the case.
it looks bad. but i’m trying to keep positive. hopefully my little bunny will be ok.
medicaid 29/04/2010
let me tell you how much i hate dealing with government programs.
i hate it a lot.
so glad though because i just finished reapplying for the benefits i was wrongly denied for and i apparently got Little Star’s medicaid worked out…kinda.
oh. btw, i had my baby. xD
i just haven’t made a post on here about that yet. the little rutabaga will have pictures and a formal post soon! being a mommy and responsible adult is hard. D=
busy busy! 04/02/2010
i look terrible these days! haha. i just kinda stopped caring about my image since i currently weigh 23lbs more than i did several months ago. i still try to look as cute as possible, but hey. what can ya do? i’m just glad that my face hasn’t gotten fat! anyway, this picture is of me in the mother & baby suites at the new St. Joseph’s hospital off dale mabry and van dyke. beni and i visited there during their community open house. it’s a lovely hospital and i hope i am able to register to go there!
i’ve been pretty busy lately. not with work unfortunately. i’ve been getting my craft on. i’ve been crocheting things here and there and i fear arthritis is in my future. D; i think i’ve put a hold on christmas crocheting just because of certain issues. ugh…. i’ll get them done one day! but i DID manage to finish projects i had for my cousin’s terra and bonki! within 3 days too! i’m getting so much faster at crocheting. it was terra’s 16th birthday a few days ago and bonki will be having his baptism soon so i really wanted to make something for them. i’ll post pictures of my finished products when they receive their gifts!
nii-san will be flying to california later today around 2 in the afternoon. lucky bitch! i want to go! i miss cali so much, and i miss the fam even more! and then after that, daddy will be flying into california too. lucky lucky! i just found out that i am not able to travel any more! this sucks. i was actually planning to meet up with daddy in california. that’s not happening. ugh… if only i knew that sooner i would’ve planned to fly there around january! blows… i’ve also been really wanting to visit my family in the philippines. i miss it there! beni and i have been talking about it recently and it just makes me feel homesick even though i never lived there. i’m hoping i can visit the phils during the summer as well as cali. we’ll see in the next coming months!
well, just wanted to do a little update for now. i’ll post more later. i need to get back in the swing of things, well, blogging-wise. i’d do vlogs too but…meh. no one wants to see my fat ass complaining about how my medicine is making me vomit all the time. xP which btw, it TOTALLY sucks! well, i’m done here. it’s time for bed. i need to take nii-san to the airport around noon tomorrow so i gotta hit the sack. toodles!
moving along 22/11/2009
no zen-like youtube music today. the music i hear is nii-san playing resident evil 5′s mercenaries. which btw, resident evil 5 gold, ZOMG! two new champaigns and mercenaries reunion with 8 new players??! eek! needs to come out NYYYAAAOOWWW!!
what’s been up recently? well, things have been getting better since my little relapse, so that’s good. i’ve been able to do a little mantra meditation and such to get me back in-tuned and grounded again. also been reading some “happy books”. yeah… counselor recommended a few books for me to pick up, so i thought, eh. why not give it a shot. plus i haven’t done any reading in FOREVER, so it’s good to get back into it. i’m just so glad my stupid episode is over and i can get back to taking care of myself and my family.
speaking of family, so beni moved! ok. he kinda did. he moved to his brother’s old room and it’s AWESOME! it’s so much bigger than his old room. hell, it’s even bigger than MY room! we got pretty much all the furniture in the new room, just gotta finish moving all his clothes and such. there’s so much space there now we can just sprawl out on the floor and chill..which we do. x3 and gaming is more enjoyable too. we aren’t dangerously close to the tv anymore so our eyes can endure even longer gaming sessions. hahaha… which is good because a lot of good games just came out. uncharted 2, assassin’s creed 2, modern warfare 2…just noticed these are all sequels. funny.. anyway, a lot of good games! here’s how we celebrated the move:
mmm…we DO enjoy the bubblies! and check out the totally cute purple micro-plush throw beni got for me for the move. i LOVE it!!! it’s so soft!! <33 i think i’m doing what elliot from scrubs did at the end of the series. i think i’m secretly moving into beni’s place. haha. i think that’s just me hoping that one day beni asks me to move in with him. maybe one day… ^^;
on the 17th, i met my nutritionist for the free food program i signed up for. it was pretty cool talking about my current diet and how i can improve it for my health. she said that i could keep with my vegitarian diet which rocks! but i have to drink…*gulps*…milk… ugh! i’m serious, that shit is nasty. i’ve been downing it with chocolate syrup and vanilla extract and i still can’t stand it. i’m glad i only have to drink it half the time. man…why can’t soy milk be included in the program?? ;A; speaking of healthy eating, beni just wowed me recently by hitting up a veggie patty sub at subway recently:
veggie patties!
oh my brave man! i still find it funny that he chose it out of the blue. i assumed he would’ve ordered something more…dead. but he enjoyed it and he even said he’d eat it again. now if i can get him to eat at least a tomato slice…hmm… baby steps! also, i went to tijuana flats for the first time yesterday. it was actually REALLY good. i had a veggie soft taco and i wanted MORE. maybe we can go sometime again soon. we went to the one on this plaza called village place off montague street. very nice place. i wish i can get a flat there!
ooo! and i just got in a few goodies! i’m so excited for them!
after my favourite ahnk necklace broke a year or so ago, i’ve been going through so many different necklaces to fill the void. i’ve had a lot but none stuck it out long enough. the ones made of metal eventually rusted, my hemp ones broke, and my favourite necklace that tita modie gave me is now scattered all over beni’s floor. ;A; i finally just decided to go online and just search. i looked through so many online stores to find SOMETHING that would just call out to me. there were a few that were begging me to buy them, and i still just might do that, but i finally came across this lovely om necklace that said, “hey, raven. you know i’m the one for you!” it’s a lovely little pewter om that i found in a store on ebay. my last necklace (the ahnk) was pewter too, so i think this was somehow destined. ^^ and it was surprisingly really inexpensive! the ones that i kept looking over that i loved were a bit pricey. around the 40 and up range which i usually don’t mind considering my favourite ahnk necklace of all time was around 70, but this little guy was under 6 dollars! EEE!!! and it looks SOOOO much cuter than it’s picture online! <33 ॐ
i also just got in the crystal wands i ordered earlier in the week. they are so beautiful! i was so afraid the ones the lady would pick out for me would be really pale coloured ones, but these are just..uhhh!!! i love them! also, the seller sent a tumbled moonstone and aventurine as a free gift!! i can’t wait to use them all!
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lastly…
I GOT A JOB!!!!
healthy eating gone bad 13/11/2009
yesterday i felt like crap. D=
yep. that’s how i’m going to start off the post. don’t get me wrong. i’m not feeling depressed again. other than occassional sadness, but ehh.. if it gets really bad like before, i’ll take my advisor’s advice and see a counselor, go to group again, i don’t know. whatever it is she wants me to do these days.
oh! off topic. so no. i was actually feeling physically ILL. it’s weird because yesterday i actually made an effort to eat pretty healthy. in the morning i had two bowls of vitamin and mineral enriched cereal with soy milk and after that i had a HUGE banana. i stress out huge because that thing was unusually long and thick. yes. long and thick. i said it. penis jokes end….now. xP for lunch i had the rest of the tinola my sister and i made which aside from spices and such consisted of rice and a lot of lettuce. after finishing that, i had a small bowl of veggies (broccoli, water chesnuts, red pepper, etc). for “dessert” i had lightly sauted tofu bites. sooooo good.
an hour or so after lunch, i was feeling really sick so i didn’t do anything for pretty much the rest of the day aside from lying down which sometimes just makes my head hurt. i figured it might’ve been the sauted tofu, so i’m making sure to avoid that next time. for snack, i had a medium sized granny smith apple with a little peanut butter topped off with wheatgerm. felt too sick to eat dinner right away so i had some semi-homemade blueberry yoghurt with granola and a little bit of hemp protein/fibre powder. still felt sick. at the end of the day, i decided to go not as healthy and made myself some good old ramen noodles with eggs. i felt better afterwards. D;
i guess that’s what i get for eating…healthy…. *cries* but the meals were so good! it’s not fair. i guess something in my body just wanted to reject all the delicious healthy goods. today, so far i’ve avoided the fruits and veggies overload. still had some, but not more than i usually do. i’m having a little bit of a headache, but when do i not have one these days!
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since i’m on the not-as-healthy streak right now. thought i’d share.
FREE Truffles!* November 19th from 5-7PM
Truffle Break Returns! Stop in to your local Boutique for our special event.
*Limit one truffle per person while supplies last.
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got this in my e-mail today from godiva. free truffles! yumm!!! i’ve been soooo into godiva chocolates recently, i got excited and thought i’d share. not sure if you have to be a godiva member to get this free truffle, but if you like godiva chocolates and aren’t a member yet, then something is wrong with you anyway. just make sure if you go, you don’t visit the one at citrus park mall…because i swear to god if i go there and if one of any of my favourite truffles is gone, i will find you, and i will kill you…
lastly, got another e-mail today from this one website i joined recently. it was featuring all their best holiday pumpkin and squash recipes. someone make this for me..
Pumpkin Baked Alaska
Prep: 20 minutes
Freeze: several hours or overnight
Bake: 3 to 4 minutes
Nutrition Facts
Percent Daily Values are based on a 2,000 calorie diet
- Amount Per Serving
- Calories 366
- Total Fat (g) 16
- Saturated Fat (g) 9
- Cholesterol (mg) 68
- Sodium (mg) 247
- Carbohydrate (g) 50
- Fiber (g) 1
- Protein (g) 5
Percent Daily Values are based on a 2,000 calorie diet
Ingredients
- 1 cup canned solid-pack pumpkin puree (not pie filling)
- 1/3 cup packed light-brown sugar
- 1/2 teaspoon pumpkin pie spice
- 2 containers (1 pint each) vanilla ice cream, softened (Note, below)
- 1/2 cup almond-toffee bits OR: English toffee bits
- 1 package (10.75 ounces) frozen pound cake, thawed
- 3 tablespoons pasteurized powdered egg whites (see Note)
- 9 tablespoons warm water
- 1-1/3 cups marshmallow cream
Directions
1. Line 8-1/2 x 4-1/2-inch loaf pan with plastic wrap with enough overhang to cover top. In large bowl, whisk pumpkin, sugar and pie spice. Stir in 1 pint softened ice cream. Spoon into prepared pan, smoothing top. Freeze until ice cream is firm enough to put next layer on top, about 1 hour.2. In same bowl, stir together remaining ice cream and toffee bits. Spoon over top of pumpkin ice cream layer, smoothing top. Bring sides of plastic wrap over to cover top. Freeze several hours or overnight until firm.3. Assemble: Cut cake horizontally in half. Save one piece for snacking. Place other on ovenproof serving platter or in shallow baking dish.4. Heat oven to 500 degrees F.
1. Line 8-1/2 x 4-1/2-inch loaf pan with plastic wrap with enough overhang to cover top. In large bowl, whisk pumpkin, sugar and pie spice. Stir in 1 pint softened ice cream. Spoon into prepared pan, smoothing top. Freeze until ice cream is firm enough to put next layer on top, about 1 hour.2. In same bowl, stir together remaining ice cream and toffee bits. Spoon over top of pumpkin ice cream layer, smoothing top. Bring sides of plastic wrap over to cover top. Freeze several hours or overnight until firm.3. Assemble: Cut cake horizontally in half. Save one piece for snacking. Place other on ovenproof serving platter or in shallow baking dish.4. Heat oven to 500 degrees F.
5. In large bowl, mix powdered whites and warm water. Let stand 2 minutes; stir to dissolve. Beat at high speed until soft peaks form. Beat in marshmallow until stiff peaks form.
6. Remove pan from freezer; remove wrapped ice cream from pan. Fold sides of wrap back from top of ice cream; invert ice cream onto cake layer. Peel off wrap. With spatula, spread entire cake and ice cream with egg white mixture, sealing completely to platter and decoratively swirling.
7. Bake on middle shelf in 500 degree F oven until lightly browned, 3 to 4 minutes. Makes 12 servings.
7. Note: To soften ice cream as you need it, cut off container with scissors. Place ice cream in microwave-safe bowl. Microwave on defrost 1 minute. Stir with whisk until smooth. Powdered (dried) egg whites available from The Baker’s Catalogue, www.bakerscatalogue.com.
Apple Squash Soup
Makes: 8 servings
Prep: 20 minutes
Cook: 30 minutes
Roast: 1 hour
Cook: 30 minutes
Roast: 1 hour
Nutrition FactsServings Per Recipe 8 servings
Percent Daily Values are based on a 2,000 calorie diet
- Amount Per Serving
- Calories 146
- Total Fat (g) 9
- Saturated Fat (g) 4
- Cholesterol (mg) 19
- Sodium (mg) 879
- Carbohydrate (g) 18
- Fiber (g) 3
- Protein (g) 2
Percent Daily Values are based on a 2,000 calorie diet
Ingredients
- 2 pounds butternut squash
- 1 medium-size onion, cut into eighths
- 1 medium-size carrot, trimmed, peeled and cut into eighths
- 1/4 cup (1/2 stick) butter, melted
- 3 large Granny Smith apples (1-1/4 pounds), cored, peeled and each cut into eighths
- 3 cans (14.5 ounces each) chicken broth
- 3/4 teaspoon salt
- 1-1/2 teaspoons fresh thyme, chopped
- 1/8 teaspoon black pepper
- Sprigs of fresh thyme, for garnish
Directions1. Heat oven to 350°F. Half squash lengthwise; scoop out seeds. Cut each half into thirds; peel.2. Place squash, onion and carrot in single layer in roasting pan. Drizzle with melted butter; toss to coat.
3. Roast vegetables in 350°F oven 1 hour, until tender, turning vegetables over halfway through.
4. Transfer vegetables to large saucepan. Add apples, broth, salt; simmer, covered, 30 minutes, until apples are tender. Add thyme, pepper.
5. In batches, purée soup in food processor. Garnish with thyme.
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god i’m such a fat-ass.
